YWAM Missionary, Mission Adventures

When I Don’t Know…

by Brianna Rowe

Mission Adventures started on Friday evening, and we now have our second group of students from Colorado. It’s insanely busy, and wonderful, and tiring. It consists of our group of five leading teenagers in short term missions where we give short teachings and then give them opportunities to go into Madison and practice what they’ve learned. We teach, plan and lead outreaches, at moments cook, lead worship, and basically do a lot. We don’t always know what we’re doing… at least I don’t. Things go wrong and details aren’t always remembered, but it’s teaching us all how to be creative and come up with solutions on the spot. I’m learning what I’m good at and what I am not good at. It’s teaching me to truly be okay with the “I don’t knows” of life.

In the past, If I didn’t know an answer, I would confidently make it up. That’s not what He wants from me though. He’s teaching me from Micah 6:8 “…walk humbly with your God.” I might not know a whole lot when it comes to my future or finances… or even where I’m sleeping from week to week, but I do know that God is faithful. I’m learning that when I don’t know, He definitely has a plan. I’m learning that when I do the possible, He does the impossible. And I’m learning that when I’m tired or frustrated, I can lay all my feelings at the foot of the cross and hold on tight to truth and the freedom He brings.

When I walk in loving obedience like this, God gives me every ounce of strength I need to keep going. He has proven that. This weekend when I had only a few hours of sleep, and things kept coming up, and I had a lot to get done, I was able to laugh and enjoy serving others. I was able to teach on hearing God’s voice, because even in my tiredness, He chose to speak to me. “I don’t know” is becoming one of my favorite places because then God moves. When I don’t know… When I am weak… I’m learning that He is strong! And that, my friends, is one of the most beautiful things in the world.

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